when the light at the end of the tunnel only ends up being Jersey..

friends dont ever want to do anything?
people you love always away at work or school?
parents got you down?
hate where you live?
hate who you know?
hate where youve been?
already used to drinking alone?
scared to work for Con-ed or some other bullshit job in NYC?
scared to live here til at least your 40's?
anxiety. fear. depression.
3 for 50?
dirty hair, dirty nails?
me too.
blame your town.
lets move.

'Tis the season!

" i think my older brother used to listen to them "

i saw the loved ones today at the knitting factory with tina. they were so so so sick. i wish i was in that band. i wish that kind of music was what is popular right now ( kind of ) instead of that gross bands that i think only make music so they can sell merch. merch music. big ugly ass gawdy colored...im not even going to explain you know what it is!





the pink spiders played before them, there were about 20 people there and they played and sounded like shit. they sang that song "little razorblade" but you probably remember them from that ugly music video with all those people rollerskating circa 1974.


why do i post on this?

YEW GAWWWTAA SEE THA BAYYBEE

Jeff now has a baby girl! wahoo Jeff!

I am going to see her ( Oliva ) tonight, with Cory. Im excited!

its september, i couldnt be happier

i love the weather towards the end of this month. i cant wait.

i can wait for all my friends to leave for like 2 months that shit is going to suck.

• new job. $$$$. car/domicile soon. sooo soon.

who even reads this thing? im sure theres a gripe of you who do. everyone make one its the bees knees.

i want to go on a vacation, i want to relocate from staten island. i never thought id say it but i almost would like to live in brooklyn....

im 21.whiskey please =)

and in nothing new news... im very high as i type this.

honestly i cant remember those teen dreams
all my teenage feelings and their meanings
they seem too see-through to be true
all the whos are there
but the 'whys' are unclear