Sunday, March 21, 2010

but dude, this is SO relevant,

i cant believe im posting on here. this is amazing, its 2010...since the last time i posted i joined a band on virgin records...crazy..ive been on tv, radio, big giant concerts...crazy shit...though, not much has changed since my little bastard ramblings from 2 years ago. crazy! ily.

Thursday, January 8, 2009

but thats life


Tuesday, November 18, 2008

if youre hating where you are, just look at where i am

seriously going to go for a rock of love with daisy casting call right now. i was casted through myspace, got a message from the CD and gave her my number whatnot, spoke to her on the phone when i was im texas. a few days later im going to meet her and do an on camera interview haha.

let me be your rock of love.

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

places to go

on tour right now. its been raining every fucking day pretty much. fun as hell though, get to see terror every night. ( who also just drove past us and mooned us about 5 minutes ago )

I don't miss home at all I wish I could always be on tour or just anything that's an excuse to be away. I like being where no one knows my name.

can't wait to get to texas.

Saturday, November 1, 2008

the only thing im sure of

is that im not sure of a fucking thing

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

don't panic

detoxing! not from drugs, well, not from illegal drugs or anything. I've been taking a pill called Cymbalta that has run my mind for me for the past few months. don't get me wrong, I wasn't like a zombie and didn't mean things I said. but I def lost a noticable, and crucial spark in my life that I've always had. right now is about the 5th or 6th day I've gone without taking said medicine.

I'm jumping the gun. let me explain.

Cymbalta is an anti-depressant.
I am NOT depressed, I was prescribed it to help what was once crippling anxiety and panic attacks. I haven't had a panic attack in 6 months. something that was a daily occurance, and controled my life and made me so miserable. the Cymbalta can definitely be accreditted to helping me defeat anxiety. but I think it did enough and I can control it on my own now. and. even if it can't, I'd rather be anxious and have my own mind then calm and dull.

anyway, like I was saying, when you stop taking it, for some reason during the withdrawl it literally is just as bad as an opiate. I feel sudden jolts in my brain, almost like lighting striking in my head, but it doesn't even hurt I just feel it. or maybe feeling nuerons being pushed or pulled threw a synapse. its really hard to explain, but boring story short it last about 2 weeks, I'm half there and it only gets worse. I'm so dizzy that I can't even leave my bed, I feel like the weightless feeling you get the second you start dropping on a rollercoaster........every 5 minutes. its really the most intense thing I've ever experienced in my life. I'm smoking weed right now because its the only thing that can cover the symptoms of the withdrawel. cold turkey rules.

but in much sicker news. I'm going to be going out with Endwell Nov. 5th-17th on their tour with As Blood Runs Black, Terror, On Broken Wings, Endwell and even Emmure on some dates, hahah. seriously.
I'm so stoked to go, I'm just doing merch but I need a mini vacation, need some open road and freedom from this island. its going to be dope. I'm smoking a bowl under my covers posting this from my phone.